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I absolutely love Wellington because it’s so close to so many beautiful nature walks and so much scenery. I live right in the city centre and it’s just a 15 minute walk till I’m at a mountain or if I go 20 minutes in the other direction I’ll find myself in the botanical gardens. As much as I need to live in the city because of the convenience (work), I can feel so suffocated sometimes. I’m def not a big city kinda person at all.. I’d much prefer to live out in a forest or something. Wellington really gives that perfect median that suites my lifestyle at the moment perfectly.

This lovely little hike was just a train ride away... just absolutely stunning. Nothing better than a weekend spent exploring and getting into nature. I remember having the biggest smile on my face the whole time. I just felt so present and grateful. That feeling is what I aim to feel every second.

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With being present comes a sense of understanding for the people around you. A lot of us go through feelings of sadness, anxiety, fear, etc. I know from experience that it can be so easy to feel like your alone and the only one experiencing the feelings you are. Other people can seem so happy and put together that they must never feel the feelings that I feel. I then started to realise that the people closest to me didn’t ever think I had such bad anxiety, they didn’t think I had anxiety at all.  I’ve been told by friends that I seem so outgoing and happy. They had no idea that some days I struggled to show up for them or even get out of bed. But the weirdest part is I didn’t realise the closest people to me were struggling as well, unless they told me. They would flat out have to say “hey I’ve been depressed” or “hey I’ve been struggling with this.” How could I not tell that they were struggling with something? How couldn’t they tell I was? Surely when your so close to someone you would know, right? The more I’ve explored this, I’ve learned that we are all at each moment experiencing some kind of emotion/feeling. At this very moment, what do you feel? Do you regularly notice this feeling? Do you feel present with this feeling? Where do you feel it?

In this moment I feel positive feelings. But when I notice those feelings of anxiety, I can feel like I’m alone. It feels like I’m experiencing this feeling that is so terrible and no one can understand me. That’s what I thought until I began to realise in each of those moments I felt anxious, tons of other people were feeling the exact same thing even some at the exact same time. I realised that this is a shared experience I’m having with lots of other people and that they are having with me. This made me feel better because I’m not alone, we never are. We are experiencing this all together as one.

The more present you stay, the more you also begin to notice the feelings of the people around you. Observe how people act and you’ll understand how they feel. Things will be a lot different then what they have appeared.

Observe and experience.

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It’s been a while! Nearly 2 years since the last time I’ve made a post. A lot has changed in my life, and the world really. 2020 has been such a strange year.. but I think we’ve all heard enough about that to be honest.

In January, my two year visa that I had in Australia finally came to an end. Leaving what became my

home was so incredibly tough. I still think about Melbourne everyday and it’s still where I consider home. My long term goal is to be able to go back and settle there eventually. Australia was some of the best times of my life and it’s made me who I am today. I met my best friends who have become my life long family and just the place I feel like I was meant to be.

So when my visa ended in Australia, I decided to move to New Zealand with two of my really good friends. We started off in Auckland which was fun for the first two months but then lockdown hit. Lockdown in New Zealand was a complete lockdown for over a month. We weren’t allowed to leave the apartment except for the park and grocery store. It was intense and my mental health became worse then ever. I’ve never struggled so much with anxiety and it took me months to get to where I am today (still not back to myself though). When lockdown ended, I needed to get out of Auckland so I moved to Wellington with my partner. Wellington has been such an amazing new start for the both of us. It’s been a breath of fresh air.

I’ll talk more about this all later as I think it’s important to bring up mental health and starting over- especially in a time like this.

The pictures I have along with this post are from my birthday weekend which was last week. Liam took me on a trip to mahu sound which is located on the South Island. We spent two days in a little cabin situated right in the sounds. Absolutely stunning. Lately I’ve been so interested in just getting lost in nature and being completely present. The weekend was filled with gratitude, laughs, and just relaxing. No cell phone service so we really got to unplug and enjoy each other.

My goal is to start posting more- more on the topics of gratitude, presence, and wellbeing. I also want to bring my life adventures and travel into the mix. Soooo keep an eye out! X

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